tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18127996057269247582024-03-13T07:19:50.648-07:00Fatalistic MusesJennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-67601137918382169702014-03-23T14:45:00.000-07:002014-03-23T14:45:00.019-07:00Gratitude<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"Gratitude turns what you have into enough." </div>
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What is enough? How much is to much?</div>
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Lately my boyfriend and I have been developing plans for what we want our future to look like. We've both decided we want more emphasis on family and less emphasis on money and stuff. We want to eliminate debt and live within our means. But comfortably within our means. We want to have lives that are more meaningful and less about the rat race to stay ahead. </div>
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This means letting go of the idea that you need to consume. I'm trying very hard in my "hobby" practices to scale back. That means I'm trying...TRYING not to make new purchases of art supplies, which is hard. I'm an addict I admit it. I've also put myself on a "diet" of books (Only what I can get at the library or the online library) and yarn. </div>
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SIGH. It's hard. But I think it's worth it. I think the art that I do create will come out more meaningful, as it's less about the product and more about the process and result. And I have a decent stash of art supplies as it is...trust me, I'll be okay. </div>
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So in keeping with that thought, I made this page by reaching for some of my lesser used supplies. Markers. On a whim-back in the day-I purchased a set of letraset promarkers and another of letraset aqua markers. I used them a few times, then loaded them up in my pretty travel case and haven't really used them since. Why? I don't know...they're not my FAVORITE supply but they are definitely fun and vibrant. They blend if you work quickly, spreading the color out with your finger right after application. The water colors ones-aqua markers-will blend with a bit of water. It's not the cleanest of blends, as you can see, but that's perfectly alright with me. I love the "texture" of streakily blended watercolor. </div>
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The other thing I reached for in making this page is a Viva "pearl pen". It had been another impulse purchase from some store online. Today was the first time I used it. You squeeze it and a line of puffy pearly ink comes out. I promptly squeezed out a huge mess right onto my shirt testing this out....</div>
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I put it onto the girls shirt and framing her, and I like how it dried, raised and shiny. It reminds me a little of the liquid pearl drops...hmmm..maybe I'll have to use those next time. But what was kind of cool is that if you smear the liquid out right after application, it dries clear but leaves a beautiful sheen. You can kind of see it on her cheeks and forehead. Groovy, right? </div>
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What you have is enough. Be happy with where you are at in the journey that is your art. Or your life. You are enough, exactly as you are. </div>
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There, some words of inspiration for you today! I hope you're enjoying these posts, they give me a reason to keep plugging some art into my journal. </div>
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-59710480350221841302014-03-18T05:00:00.000-07:002014-03-18T05:00:11.180-07:00Wondering if you're good enough? "Should I submit something to XYZ magazine for publication?" "Am I good enough to SELL my work? Am I good enough to show it?"<br />
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These questions have been teasing at my brain lately, making me wake up in the night and sneak out to peak at the pieces I have up for family display. Are they any good? It's hard to judge the value and worth of your own work, especially when you're filled with doubt about it.<br />
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I've only been "an artist" for a few years. Most of that has been from the ground up, taking classes and getting past drawing stick figures. I still consider myself a beginner, my artwork is reflective of that. My process has always been mostly for myself.<br />
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But lately I find myself craving validation. I want to put my work out there to be seen. I want people to look at it and go "that is art." Maybe they won't understand it, but they'll accept it as artwork and move on. They won't see it as the craft of a lonely 33 year old fat chick who paints on a tiny slice of a TV tray while trying to do her day job....<br />
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Then I can truly call myself "artist".<br />
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How do you ever decide you've earned that elusive title, the distinction between crafter and artist? What makes you feel "good enough" to have your work out there for public consumption? Do I have anything truly to give to the art world?<br />
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My<a href="http://leavesoflothian.blogspot.com/"> girlfriend</a> at said that my art was simplistic and "light". I guess in some ways it is. A lot of the depth that is in the work I do gets hidden, the meaning lost in the layers. I end up with a product that's fairly sparkly, pink and upbeat but underneath there's a lot of heaviness, weariness and pain. Life. There's a lot of life. Do I need to be less subtle about the "life" in order for my work to mean anything? To be valid?<br />
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These are questions I struggle with. What are your thoughts? Is work that is "light and fluffy" and bordering on crafty considered "art"? At what point do you become and artist? What validation do you need? Let's talk.<br />
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(Phantasm-one of my more "artsy" pieces, done in charcoals layered over craft paints and modeling paste.) </div>
<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-29696611539467195902014-03-16T10:35:00.000-07:002014-03-16T10:35:00.502-07:00Trust the process<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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you hear lots of art teachers spout this mantra at you. "Trust the process. Trust your instincts. Go with your heart...." And you should. To an extent. But don't rule out cold hard practice. Do it over and over again until you can render a face in your sleep. Draw what you see. Draw it badly. Draw without looking at the paper. Draw only using a single line. Practice. Practice practice practice. Play with different colors to shade. Don't be afraid of "non-traditional" colors for a portrait, you'll get some interesting effects that may be stunning. Or they may be UGLY. It's okay. </div>
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-16312138368183313732014-03-14T10:38:00.000-07:002014-03-14T10:38:00.072-07:00Evolving<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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An older piece I did a year ago (Spring 2013). My style is evolving, slowly but it is shifting. I'm finding my own voice and style. I'm finding what story I want to tell as my life moves forward. </div>
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-3846564599323438172014-03-13T08:00:00.000-07:002014-03-13T08:00:01.866-07:00Just a quickie<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I was playing and decided to not overly complicate this pate. Simple, lovely color/texture going on and fun to make. What else could you ask for? </div>
<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-62212272822896737162014-03-12T08:00:00.000-07:002014-03-12T08:00:03.093-07:00A peak at my work-step by step <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So recently somebody asked to seem my process. I don't own the equipment to do any filming, and I'm unlikely to get anything anytime soon, since d/t the insanity that is my family, finding a quiet time and place to film would be nearly impossible unless I did it in the middle of the night. So instead I took some photos. I'll try to walk you throiugh what is going on as best as I can. </div>
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I had a sketch on a page that I didn't much like. So I covered her over, first with some gesso, then with some collage papers. The papers are post it notes that I got from Walmart. I literally reached over and just grabbed off my desk what was on hand. I liked the grid pattern of the post-its. I glued them down using gel medium, which isn't actually my favorite thing for gluing. The kind I have (Golden soft-gel semi-gloss) tends to leave the page feeling like you coated it with plastic. Which I guess you did. But again, it was what I had on hand. I am a bit heavy handed when it comes to applying things like gel medium. I put down a blob with a plastic pallet knife, then I spread it over and under the papers I am gluing down. I TRY to wait for it to dry before moving on, but I'm not always successful. Today though, I managed to wait (only because I got busy doing stuff for work.)</div>
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Once the gel medium was dry I sketched out this funny bunny with a 4b pencil. I like 4B and higher because they are soft and dark and thus go onto any glop I happen to have on the page. If I'm sketching only, I go for 2Bs or HBs. </div>
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Once she was sketched, I started adding in shading using a watercolor crayon (Caran D'ache Neocolor IIs). I go around the edges of the face, under the eyes and around the shadowed edge of the nose. </div>
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Using a water brush, I start to move the line, spreading it outwards from where I applied it. I do this leaving only a thin coating of color. Because I'm painting over gel medium, the color sort of sits on the page, not soaking into the paper really, so I'm careful to let it dry before going further or it will wipe right off. </div>
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I deepen the shading using the crayon straight. I move it around with my finger only, skipping the water at this point because I want what was already down to stay where I put it. I add in another color of pink and keep the white that was already on the page to use as highlights. I want a transparent look here, because I want the grid of the collage papers to show through somewhat. </div>
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I add some color to her shirt,ears and eyes here. Once that is dry, I get the gesso back out. Putting on a small drop, I use my pallet knife and fingers to smear it around, softening around her shirt, the edges of her ears and even some around her face. Don't be afraid to do this, especially if you are using a cheap-transparent gesso like I am. (Martha Stewarts brand) This will give a sort of dreamy look to the piece. If the watercolors reactivate and smear, that is okay too. It'll tint the gesso some and make the piece more "cohesive". You can always go back with a crayon later and add back in some definition if you want. I also added some random bits of darkness, since the background was so very white. I wanted a white sort of "minimalist" look here (I'm channeling Mindy Lacefield in this piece, I think...or maybe Misty Mawn?) But still, it was SO stark. I used a water color crayon to just scribble at random. </div>
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I wanted to make her pop a little bit, so I added some shading under her head and around her neck, just a little bit of purple, smeared out with a tiny bit of water and my finger. Like her curly-q on the top of her head? Yeah... me too. </div>
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I added a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson, just using straight crayon, and a little bit of book page with a heart drawn over the top, to bring more yellow back into the piece. I think I am done with her at this point...since I'm going for that primitive sort of look. </div>
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So, what do you think? Look at the gorgeous texture I ended up with. </div>
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-26551132004711964262014-03-10T07:00:00.000-07:002014-03-10T07:00:02.845-07:00Uncluttered<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I love art journals. I love looking at pictures of them, I love thinking about them. I love fondling papers and wondering what sort of journal it would make. I LOVE looking at sketchbooks in the store and supplies....LOVE.<br />
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The process of art journal for me has been deeply gratifying. I've found myself able to pull ideas out of the recesses of my dark and dingy brain, lay them down onto paper and then color over them. I've found myself exploring ideas that are complicated, to hard to write out on their own. Ideas about my religion, my relationships, my life, my family. I can get pretty deep.<br />
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Or I can stay right on the surface. Like sketching. Some of the work I love the most is just simple pencil sketchings, with very little to no "extras" thrown in, like paints, stickers or collage. They are quick, the instant coffee of the art world. Instant gratification, and the chance to play. I do lots of sketches like this girl here, playing with whimsy faces, shading and movement. I sketch while dinner is cooking, while I'm sitting in work meetings, while on the phone. I sketch in journals, in calendars and on work spreadsheets. I doodle in coffee shops, on newspapers, while playing board games. It keeps my hands busy and actually in many ways helps me to focus.<br />
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Art journaling should be about the freedom to play, the freedom of expression. But I strongly believe it should also be a place where you are NOT REQUIRED to be complicated. You can be as simple as you want. Let your mind unclutter, leave your page unclutted. Just get in and play.Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-3130877638027997672014-03-08T09:35:00.000-08:002014-03-08T09:35:00.225-08:00Cats, Gesso and Warped Covers<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My love is brilliant, my love is pure....</div>
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So I'm coming back into blogging. Why? Because I'm thinking about maybe putting my body of work "OUT THERE" more. Meaning...out for the public and the WORLD to view it. I tend to shy away from myself. While I can look at my artwork and think that maybe...it's not to bad, I still don't know if it's worth sharing with the world or not. </div>
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So let me tell you about this piece. I do a lot of my work while I'm...working. I know this probably isn't the BEST of ideas for my professional career, but that's when I often have time. There are no kids around, the house is quiet and I can drag out my paints without having to constantly interrupt myself with "NO! STOP THAT! DO NOT CLIMB UP THAT FIREPLACE!" </div>
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I work from home and a lot of my work is done telephonically. So oftentimes my hands are free to sketch, doodle and play around with some of my cleaner media. Lately though, I've been dragging out my Portfolio watersoluable oil pastels. I find myself starting a sketch with them, then layering on other colors, all to be blended with just the heat of my fingers...and maybe a water brush. With this piece though, I reached for my watercolor crayons. </div>
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Caran D'ache watercolor crayons are hands down MY FAVORITE "splurge" art supply. I love how easily they spread across the page, and yet you can go back in to make the color more opaque by using the crayon...as a crayon. I love having a huge range of colors at my fingertips (I splurged for the BIG set). I love how I can get in with them and add tiny details. I love how a little of them goes a LONG way. I love them. </div>
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So I started this cat sketching her out in an orange shade, then started layering in yellows, oranges and reds to create some dimension. I blended using my finger as well as a water brush, and I went back over that when it was dry with more crayon to darken further. For the back ground I rubbed crayon all over then watered it down, adding areas of gesso to soften the colors and create a sort of "haze" to everything. One of my other favorite techniques is to pounce a paper towel with a dab of gesso on it over and over to give a sort of cloudy blobby look. (Blobby is a very technical term...)<br />
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That being said, let me speak a moment on Gesso. My boyfriend/partner has us on a very strict budget. While I'm 100% on board with it, we need to pay off some bills and get some things squared away financially, it's cut back on my splurging BIG TIME. So I've been trying to A. use only what I have on hand. and B. find cheap and workable alternatives. I like golden gesso and I thought it was the be all and end all. But I've found something else....Martha Stewart.<br />
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No, Martha Stewart's brand of "Primer/Gesso" is NOT a apples to apples replacement for golden brand gesso. But is IS a replacement. And a passable one for what I do with it. It comes in a tube of 5 ounces. It's priced around $5.99 but I got it on sale for $3 at some big-box craft store (I don't remember which). What I like about it is that I can squeeze out a little or I can glob out a lot. It's transparent so if you've going for coverage...you'll have to apply more than one layer. But I like that. It drys feeling slightly chalky and not at all plastic, which is something I DISLIKE about Golden. (Golden, to me, feels heavy on the page when dry and has a bit of a plastic feel, which I find tends to make my pages stick together).<br />
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The other gesso I like is liquitex. I like that it also comes in a bottle that is squeezable and you can find it in black, white and clear. The clear really leaves a gritty rough surface for you to work on, which is good...and bad...depending on the effect you're going for. Liquitex is also a bit more reasonably priced by comparison. But for now it's still out of my budget so I'll stick with the el cheapo brand.<br />
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I sometimes will gesso a page...sometimes not. I use all different kinds of journals. (My boyfriend teased me because I was working on three...at the same time). The cat is done in a hardbound sketchbook from Michael's: "artists loft" which I believe is their store brand. The paper in it is just your basic 60lb sketch paper, but with a light coating of the Martha Stewart gesso, I found it can take a licking. What I don't like about it is I'm only 1/4 of the way into it and the cover is starting to bow and warp. I know...it was cheap. But still, I'm not sure I can finish it at this rate:<br />
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I also am using a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Stillman-Birn-Alpha-Wirebound-SketchBook/dp/B005KMFXAK/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1394126047&sr=8-3&keywords=Stillman+and+birn">Stillman and Birns wirebound sketchbook </a>. This was a christmas gift from my boyfriend and a bit of a splurge..but a real joy to work in! The paper is thick and lovely and the cover is nice and heavy.<br />
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-40790135164609898372014-03-06T09:32:00.001-08:002014-03-06T09:32:36.278-08:00Picking back upMy life...is a whirlwind of activity. I created this blog with the desire to focus on the art I was making, but while that was going on, LIFE was being made!<br />
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Maybe I should start here fresh. Maybe you'd like to get to know me a little bit before investing in the time to peruse my artwork?<br />
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Okay, so I'm a 33 year old woman.That is the base of my descriptors. I'm a mother. I have one son who is 14 years old. He's a wonderful being, full of creative life force and imagination. He's autistic/aspger's disorder. He doesn't live with me currently. He lives with my parents for various reasons. I'm also "mothering" two boys who belong to my boyfriend/fiance. They also both have autism...so if anybody is keeping count that's THREE boys all with special needs. It gets LOUD in our house!!<br />
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Professionally I'm an RN. I work for a globally present insurance company, which means I sell my soul daily to the corporate beast. I am a case manager for medically fragile children. This population is very much my PASSION.<br />
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So that's a very VERY brief bio. I'll reveal more in bits and pieces as we go along in this journey together I'm sure. I always wonder how much to "reveal" in blogs, because you learn early in life to keep yourself distanced from your internet presence. But I want you to see "me" and how my life affects my art process. So we'll see where that line goes.<br />
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About me as an artist. I'm not sure yet that I "am" an artist. I know that I make art, but I make it for me, for a few friends and co-workers. I make it as a way to deal with emotional stress. I make it to heal. I make it in my art journals and I make it on cheap canvases to stick up around the house. I've been told I have developed a style, and I think I can definately see it! Still, oftentimes I see bits and pieces from classes I've taken and artists I admire. But...that's okay. I'm still plodding forward. Lately I've been becoming more and more enchanted with little creatures and animals and find them sneaking into my artwork...we'll see where that goes. I'm absolutely in LOVE with Juliette Crane and Mindy Lacefield so maybe I'm absorbing some of their muse into myself.<br />
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-39860652032621702272012-10-30T03:00:00.000-07:002012-10-30T03:00:08.126-07:00Letraset Pro Markers: An upaid unsolicited reviewOkay...I'll start this out with a simple statement. I LOVE these markers. I bought mine on Amazon.com when I was looking for a cheaper alternative to the much beloved copic markers. No...these are NOT exactly like copic markers. I couldn't really tell you the difference because I'm not schooled in such things... but I know copics are freakin' expensive! At over $3 a marker I can't add them to my stash except for a few at a time..on a whim..when I feel splurgish.<br />
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So, the Letraset Pro Markers came in a pack of 12 for just over <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Letraset-Marker-Blending-Pastel-12-Pack/dp/B004N27946">$24</a>. I got two sets, a pastel set and a "Vivid" set and I love them both. I played with them when I first got them, laying down color, then laying another color down over the top of the first. They blend gently together using the blending pen and to some small extent, they are water soluable if you work quickly and immediately after putting the color down. I've found that over paint they smush around nicely with your finger but dry firmly in place. They go over acrylic paint fairly easily with little clogging and they show up fairly well.<br />
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The colors are beautiful, bright and vivid as you can see. This was a page just playing around as I watched the Hatfields and McCoys on History. You can see how nicely the colors blend. </div>
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-55976511691976048582012-10-26T03:00:00.000-07:002012-10-26T03:00:13.896-07:00Finding a styleI'm sure people look at my work and think "oh, I can see <a href="http://www.willowing.org/">Tamara Laporte</a> or <a href="http://suziblu.typepad.com/">Suzi Blu</a> in that..." and the truth is, you can. That's because I took classes from both Tam and from Suzi. I loved them, they both opened up my eyes to what I COULD do and set my muse free to start creating my own BHGs (Big headed girls). But have I found my own style?<br />
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In some ways, I have. I don't use the techniques of either Tam or Suzi religiously, rather I do a combination of both with a bit of something of my own. I don't use just pencil, just water color. You might find some marker in my work, some acrylic paint, some ink, some charcoal....it depends on what I grab and how I'm liking the piece. I'm noticing a "look" that is mine also, a gesturing, a look to the eyes, a shape of the mouth...a way of laying out back grounds.<br />
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It's hard to admire artists so much and yet not look like them. It's hard to find a place that is your own when your inspiration and technique were learned from others. I'm hoping that I'm starting to develop my own "groove" and my own niche. There are many other classes that I would LOVE to take...Jane Davenport for instance. But for now, I'm trying to work on my own "voice", seeing if I can get it to speak louder and bury the layers of the "learned" beneath it.<br />
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<br />Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-64885868039785212992012-10-22T07:26:00.002-07:002012-10-22T07:26:49.158-07:00Pain and Paint<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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There is a touch of sadness that always seems to come out in my art girls. A bit of loneliness, melancholy or just outright heartache. I don't always set out from a place of "pain" to paint, but often bits of pain leak out from my fingers, seeping from my soul to the page in a way I never intend or imagine when I first start to sketch or paint.<br />
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I make no secret that I struggle with depression. It's been an ongoing battle for me since at least 1996, probably much earlier. I fight anxiety and a deep seated pain that lurks always just behind my eyes, rooted in my heart. I can't pull it out, I can't get rid of it. I can only go along for the ride and see where it takes me. So far, art has been a surprising ingredient in this battle. I've read many times that genius breeds madness. But I wonder if it's not the other way around? Not that I'm a genius...far from it more likely. But there is a certain madness to some of the worlds most creative minds that is undeniable. </div>
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We are, in part, creatures of our environment, but there are also larger forces at work around us. I read once that Shamans of ancient tribes often struggled with great pain and illness before coming to their calling as great healers and magicians. I wonder if there is something to that, if there is a calling to suffer in order to strengthen what is inside? Is it fate that depression lurks inside me, or is it simply bad genes? The luck of the DNA draw? </div>
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Whatever it is, it is definitely a part of what makes me. It is so deeply rooted inside of me that even though on most days I am well medicated and functional, it always looms and lurks, crafting my decisions and feeding my creative urges. </div>
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Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1812799605726924758.post-83709418015568081412012-08-01T17:32:00.000-07:002012-08-01T17:32:44.552-07:00Merrie Lughnasadh<a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lughnasadh">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lughnasadh</a><br />
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The start of this blog and the photo isn't the best of quality...I know. <br />
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This piece is markers, acrylic paints and ink. I really enjoyed doing this, it was an experiment. Jennifer Whttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07270734246711789355noreply@blogger.com0